Believe me; the fractured skull, seizures, four months in a neck brace, and loss of hearing, is not worth the Helicopter ride that you can’t even remember anyways.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
If you go Boarding.... Wear a Helmet!
Believe me; the fractured skull, seizures, four months in a neck brace, and loss of hearing, is not worth the Helicopter ride that you can’t even remember anyways.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Grandparents
My parents are gone yet again on another trip down south. This time they are in St. Kitts, and no, they are not at the Capri Inn on Ontario St. Not “St. Catharines – St. Kitts” I mean the “real” St. Kitts in the Caribbean. This is where our farm workers are from, my parents have always told them that they would love to one day come and visit them at home, now they finally are. So once again Bandit and I hold the fort.
Well the week is almost over and I still haven’t had to cook anything yet, kinda nice, but the fridge is now empty of leftovers and I have begun my grocery list. Another bonus is getting invited out for dinner, my Opa and Oma had me over for dinner last night and I had a great time.
I love my Opa and Oma. My relationship with my grandparents has had an amazing impact on my life. They have both been a big part of my childhood and contributed greatly to my development in both my spiritual and daily life. I have so many good memories with them when I look back, from sleepovers at their house with friends to visiting them yearly in their Florida home. I have also learned lots from them over the years from the many conversations with them, as well as learning from how they live their lives with the principles and values that they hold strong to. I love my Opa and Oma, and I thank them for their part in shaping the person that I am today.
Last night I was able to have a wonderful evening together with them. My Oma’s cooking is always delicious, Jeopardy is always educational, and our conversation was both spiritually uplifting and filling with knowledge from their life experiences. To sit down in conversation with them I am always eager to gain wisdom from their experiences of life. If asked, my Opa would humbly admit that he is not wise, but I have to disagree, his character and his life inspire me. There is so much that I have already and can continue to learn from him. I am truly blessed to have such wonderful and loving grandparents in my life.
I am still young, I have the rest of my life to develop my character, I can only hope that one day I too will be blessed (God willing) to sit down in conversation with my grandson and inspire him.
The fear of the Lord is the begining of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and insruction.
-Proverbs 1:7
Well the week is almost over and I still haven’t had to cook anything yet, kinda nice, but the fridge is now empty of leftovers and I have begun my grocery list. Another bonus is getting invited out for dinner, my Opa and Oma had me over for dinner last night and I had a great time.
I love my Opa and Oma. My relationship with my grandparents has had an amazing impact on my life. They have both been a big part of my childhood and contributed greatly to my development in both my spiritual and daily life. I have so many good memories with them when I look back, from sleepovers at their house with friends to visiting them yearly in their Florida home. I have also learned lots from them over the years from the many conversations with them, as well as learning from how they live their lives with the principles and values that they hold strong to. I love my Opa and Oma, and I thank them for their part in shaping the person that I am today.
Last night I was able to have a wonderful evening together with them. My Oma’s cooking is always delicious, Jeopardy is always educational, and our conversation was both spiritually uplifting and filling with knowledge from their life experiences. To sit down in conversation with them I am always eager to gain wisdom from their experiences of life. If asked, my Opa would humbly admit that he is not wise, but I have to disagree, his character and his life inspire me. There is so much that I have already and can continue to learn from him. I am truly blessed to have such wonderful and loving grandparents in my life.
I am still young, I have the rest of my life to develop my character, I can only hope that one day I too will be blessed (God willing) to sit down in conversation with my grandson and inspire him.
The fear of the Lord is the begining of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and insruction.
-Proverbs 1:7
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Upgrade your Gray Matter
Alright, so enough about my knee. Sure, I must admit I have been bummed out because of it, although not because of pain. Pain is relative and when it comes to physical pain, I have a high threshold. I have just been unsettled about feeling so incapacitated; I don't like limping. Alright, so enough about my knee...
This may come as a shock to some of you... I have been reading a book! I know that I may come across as a very studious type, but in reality I am almost at the opposite end of the spectrum from friends of mine such as Jason, who study GREAT BOOKS at University. I say "almost' because I do read a little and by that I should admit that I have been reading "The Boat Who Wouldn't Float" by Farley Mowat for about a year and a half now. I am roughly three quarters through a 197-page novel, and the last chapter I read was probably 3 months ago. You can stop laughing now!
That is not the book I am talking about, actually I have been reading a book that at one point in time I was given a copy and told to read it, however I didn't want to because I thought that there was just way too much "hype" about this book. I thought it was just a Christian marketing and money-making ploy. To say the least I was very cynical. (Side note: that is one of the many things that God is working on in my life)
"The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren, complete with a green ribbon heading on the front cover that reads "The #1 New York Times Bestseller", that kind of a statement may turn you onto or away from a book like this. In my case it was the later, until now.
I am over half way through this book and cannot put it down. For those of you who have read it already I know it says to read it for 40 days, one day at a time. But to be honest, some days there is so much to absorb that I have to read that chapter again. As I make my way through the book and write down my thoughts in my journal, I can't help but to think about reading this book again in a year from now together with my journal, when circumstances in my life are different. I am excited to read the biblical truths in a book like this from a new perspective on my life and to look back to what I wrote in my journal and see what God had taught me at this time. So, to sum it all up, I am really enjoying this book. I have learned new truths and reaffirmed many that I already knew, God is at work in my life, but only because I have allowed Him to be.
If anyone is interested, I recommend this book.
Wow, I sound like LeVar Burton from “Reading Rainbow”
“But you don’t have to take my word for it!”
This may come as a shock to some of you... I have been reading a book! I know that I may come across as a very studious type, but in reality I am almost at the opposite end of the spectrum from friends of mine such as Jason, who study GREAT BOOKS at University. I say "almost' because I do read a little and by that I should admit that I have been reading "The Boat Who Wouldn't Float" by Farley Mowat for about a year and a half now. I am roughly three quarters through a 197-page novel, and the last chapter I read was probably 3 months ago. You can stop laughing now!
That is not the book I am talking about, actually I have been reading a book that at one point in time I was given a copy and told to read it, however I didn't want to because I thought that there was just way too much "hype" about this book. I thought it was just a Christian marketing and money-making ploy. To say the least I was very cynical. (Side note: that is one of the many things that God is working on in my life)
"The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren, complete with a green ribbon heading on the front cover that reads "The #1 New York Times Bestseller", that kind of a statement may turn you onto or away from a book like this. In my case it was the later, until now.
I am over half way through this book and cannot put it down. For those of you who have read it already I know it says to read it for 40 days, one day at a time. But to be honest, some days there is so much to absorb that I have to read that chapter again. As I make my way through the book and write down my thoughts in my journal, I can't help but to think about reading this book again in a year from now together with my journal, when circumstances in my life are different. I am excited to read the biblical truths in a book like this from a new perspective on my life and to look back to what I wrote in my journal and see what God had taught me at this time. So, to sum it all up, I am really enjoying this book. I have learned new truths and reaffirmed many that I already knew, God is at work in my life, but only because I have allowed Him to be.
If anyone is interested, I recommend this book.
Wow, I sound like LeVar Burton from “Reading Rainbow”
“But you don’t have to take my word for it!”
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Can't I just buy a new Knee on eBay?
So it is official... My ACL is torn completely from my femur.
And I think he removed part of my meniscus. (I was not in a fully conscious state when Dr. Robert came by after to talk to me.)
*sigh... Do you ever wish you could go back in time to prevent an accident from happening? I do, but unfortunately I am not friends with Dr Emmett Brown, or Michael J. Fox for that matter. So I guess I have to just accept that accidents happen and not dwell on wishing they didn't, then I can learn and make changes because of them. Okay, so except the wrecked knee and keep on living. Go snowboarding but be cautious to prevent it from happening again. Yeah... Go Snowboarding! I can't wait!
Unfortunately I have to make my way around on crutches again, hopefully only for a few days if that, but then it is back to the life of limping. I will do my best to recover quickly and I will know better what is happening next when I see my Surgeon in a week. I have a dressing on my knee and I am tempted to take it off, I want to see the incision in my knee. The nurse told me not to but I am curious, we will see if I can wait the week or if my curiosity gets the best of me. Although the last thing I want is an infection in my knee because that already happened to my other knee and put me into the Hospital for 6 months. 6 Months means the winter will be over without snowboarding. I can't let that happen.
So all together my surgery went well, except for the bad news on the condition of my knee, although I already assumed it was so. There was also the difficult time the nurse had trying to get my vein for the intravenous. She kept poking around and I kept laughing, I told her that my other side works better (I just know this from so many times getting IV). So sure enough she tries the other side and... Voila!
Also the general anesthetic worked great, I can't believe how instantly they can knock you out. It’s Crazy! And just as instantly as you go out, you wake up. Unfortunately waking up means that reality sets in and ... I'll just leave it at that.
So I am not perfect, and I am broken... but I am blessed to have friends and family that accept me just the way I am.
And I think he removed part of my meniscus. (I was not in a fully conscious state when Dr. Robert came by after to talk to me.)
*sigh... Do you ever wish you could go back in time to prevent an accident from happening? I do, but unfortunately I am not friends with Dr Emmett Brown, or Michael J. Fox for that matter. So I guess I have to just accept that accidents happen and not dwell on wishing they didn't, then I can learn and make changes because of them. Okay, so except the wrecked knee and keep on living. Go snowboarding but be cautious to prevent it from happening again. Yeah... Go Snowboarding! I can't wait!
Unfortunately I have to make my way around on crutches again, hopefully only for a few days if that, but then it is back to the life of limping. I will do my best to recover quickly and I will know better what is happening next when I see my Surgeon in a week. I have a dressing on my knee and I am tempted to take it off, I want to see the incision in my knee. The nurse told me not to but I am curious, we will see if I can wait the week or if my curiosity gets the best of me. Although the last thing I want is an infection in my knee because that already happened to my other knee and put me into the Hospital for 6 months. 6 Months means the winter will be over without snowboarding. I can't let that happen.
So all together my surgery went well, except for the bad news on the condition of my knee, although I already assumed it was so. There was also the difficult time the nurse had trying to get my vein for the intravenous. She kept poking around and I kept laughing, I told her that my other side works better (I just know this from so many times getting IV). So sure enough she tries the other side and... Voila!
Also the general anesthetic worked great, I can't believe how instantly they can knock you out. It’s Crazy! And just as instantly as you go out, you wake up. Unfortunately waking up means that reality sets in and ... I'll just leave it at that.
So I am not perfect, and I am broken... but I am blessed to have friends and family that accept me just the way I am.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Broken
Well here I go again another one of my many visits to the Hospital. Sometimes it seems like I should just live there. You name it; I’ve broken it. Nose, Thumb, Rib, Foot, Knee, Heart, Skull… the list goes on!
Good to know though that not all injuries in my life are a result of extreme sports, because I was beginning to think I should give them up. Heck, when you truly feel pain in life, fracturing your skull and wearing a neck brace seems like a walk in the park. But you got to get up and try again. I know that I can make it through anything that comes my way in life and learn something from it; I now wear a helmet when I snowboard. I can break my head but I will never stop snowboarding. I can bust my knee but I will never stop jumping. I can break my heart but I will never stop loving.
So once again under the knife, this Thursday I go for surgery, Arthroscopic Medial Menisectomy to be exact. This is the first of two operations that I will have to undergo. The second will be a re-construction of my ACL. What does that mean? Well for those of you who didn't know, I tore my ACL in my left knee (it is the ligament that basically holds your knee together) while snowboarding last March. I hit a jump, landed badly, and it felt like my knee exploded! After making my way to the side of the hill, un-strapping, and trying to walk it off, It still didn't seem right so I rode down to the ski clinic and iced my swollen knee for a few hours. However, the day was still young and the conditions were great, so of course I went back out riding. It hurt to walk. It didn't hurt to ride. So I rode. Now those of you who snowboard, you may understand this, those who don't may not, but there was this Huge Table-Top at the bottom of the Terrain Park. All I can say to describe it was that it was LARGE and PERFECT, a jump that you can only dream of. Did I mention that the snow conditions were great? So naturally, me with my full-blown ACL, how could I resist? I can just go for the big air; nothing fancy, just don't fall. Wow, it was amazing! I think I spent almost the rest of that day hitting that jump only. That was my last day boarding last year and what a way to finish off the season.
Then the car ride home, my knee swelled up and by the time I got home it was so stiff and sore. I could hardly walk. I went to the Hospital, and by that I mean my best friend literally carried me into the emergency. I had some x-rays taken that I can now add to my already abundant portfolio, just to prove that my bones were not broken. I think a broken bone would have been better than a torn tendon because at least bones can heal themselves.
Isn't it amazing how resilient the human body actually is?
So this Thursday is my surgery, I can’t help but to think that the general anesthetic will be a welcome temporary break from all sense of emotion, but after I get to look forward (*sarcasm*) to lying in bed with my prescription of Tylenol 3’s (which I probably won’t take anyways because I never do. I prefer to tough it out rather than rely on meds).
Well all I can say now is that I pray for a speedy recovery and SNOW!
Good to know though that not all injuries in my life are a result of extreme sports, because I was beginning to think I should give them up. Heck, when you truly feel pain in life, fracturing your skull and wearing a neck brace seems like a walk in the park. But you got to get up and try again. I know that I can make it through anything that comes my way in life and learn something from it; I now wear a helmet when I snowboard. I can break my head but I will never stop snowboarding. I can bust my knee but I will never stop jumping. I can break my heart but I will never stop loving.
So once again under the knife, this Thursday I go for surgery, Arthroscopic Medial Menisectomy to be exact. This is the first of two operations that I will have to undergo. The second will be a re-construction of my ACL. What does that mean? Well for those of you who didn't know, I tore my ACL in my left knee (it is the ligament that basically holds your knee together) while snowboarding last March. I hit a jump, landed badly, and it felt like my knee exploded! After making my way to the side of the hill, un-strapping, and trying to walk it off, It still didn't seem right so I rode down to the ski clinic and iced my swollen knee for a few hours. However, the day was still young and the conditions were great, so of course I went back out riding. It hurt to walk. It didn't hurt to ride. So I rode. Now those of you who snowboard, you may understand this, those who don't may not, but there was this Huge Table-Top at the bottom of the Terrain Park. All I can say to describe it was that it was LARGE and PERFECT, a jump that you can only dream of. Did I mention that the snow conditions were great? So naturally, me with my full-blown ACL, how could I resist? I can just go for the big air; nothing fancy, just don't fall. Wow, it was amazing! I think I spent almost the rest of that day hitting that jump only. That was my last day boarding last year and what a way to finish off the season.
Then the car ride home, my knee swelled up and by the time I got home it was so stiff and sore. I could hardly walk. I went to the Hospital, and by that I mean my best friend literally carried me into the emergency. I had some x-rays taken that I can now add to my already abundant portfolio, just to prove that my bones were not broken. I think a broken bone would have been better than a torn tendon because at least bones can heal themselves.
Isn't it amazing how resilient the human body actually is?
So this Thursday is my surgery, I can’t help but to think that the general anesthetic will be a welcome temporary break from all sense of emotion, but after I get to look forward (*sarcasm*) to lying in bed with my prescription of Tylenol 3’s (which I probably won’t take anyways because I never do. I prefer to tough it out rather than rely on meds).
Well all I can say now is that I pray for a speedy recovery and SNOW!
Monday, January 01, 2007
New Beginings
Another new year, another chance for us to make a fresh start. So what is it this year? Eat less junk food, exercise more, make more use of my free time, serve more...? The list goes on. If I am going to be able to make any change in my life, I need to change my heart. I think that our lifestyle is a true representation of our heart. If my heart desires a healthy lifestyle then I will exercise more and eat right. If my heart is living for God's purpose then my life will be lived as one that reflects Him.
This past Sunday morning at my church our "new years" service was comprised of singing, testimonies, and baptisms. What a great service to ascribe worth to God in community, especially at this time of year when we seem to take the time to evaluate our lives and make new commitments or changes. It is great to hear the testimonies of others and how God has brought them through their life struggles and experiences to the place in their lives now where they are ready to make a public commitment to living their life for God. We can give God the glory for the work that he has done in their hearts now that they have chosen to follow Him, God reveals Himself to all people and they have chosen to see God with their heart open to Him.
So, as I sat reflecting on the work that God had been doing in the hearts of other believers, I couldn't help but to think, especially considering my circumstances, that I too need to re-commit my life to God, (i.e. put my de-railed train back on track). I also need to write this down so that I never forget it, because I ALWAYS need to be at this place in my life where I am re-committing my life to Him. Or maybe to better say it, just simply reflecting always on the condition of my heart and to remember the commitment that I have made to follow Christ. Once we allow our heart's desires to fade or slip away, then so too will our lifestyle.
Whoever is reading this, even myself, never stop evaluating your heart condition. What is your heart living for? What is your purpose in life? That is your lifestyle. That is who you are.
Make a commitment to change. Make a difference in this world.
You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
-Isaiah 26:3
This past Sunday morning at my church our "new years" service was comprised of singing, testimonies, and baptisms. What a great service to ascribe worth to God in community, especially at this time of year when we seem to take the time to evaluate our lives and make new commitments or changes. It is great to hear the testimonies of others and how God has brought them through their life struggles and experiences to the place in their lives now where they are ready to make a public commitment to living their life for God. We can give God the glory for the work that he has done in their hearts now that they have chosen to follow Him, God reveals Himself to all people and they have chosen to see God with their heart open to Him.
So, as I sat reflecting on the work that God had been doing in the hearts of other believers, I couldn't help but to think, especially considering my circumstances, that I too need to re-commit my life to God, (i.e. put my de-railed train back on track). I also need to write this down so that I never forget it, because I ALWAYS need to be at this place in my life where I am re-committing my life to Him. Or maybe to better say it, just simply reflecting always on the condition of my heart and to remember the commitment that I have made to follow Christ. Once we allow our heart's desires to fade or slip away, then so too will our lifestyle.
Whoever is reading this, even myself, never stop evaluating your heart condition. What is your heart living for? What is your purpose in life? That is your lifestyle. That is who you are.
Make a commitment to change. Make a difference in this world.
You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
-Isaiah 26:3
Monday, December 25, 2006
All I want for Christmas is... YOU!
So this is Christmas.
About a month or so ago, when all the questions of "What do you want for Christmas?" began, I sat down one day to think about that very question. What do I want for Christmas? Socks, underwear, clothes, food? These are all things I need, but I have them all in abundance, heck I even have a job and I can afford to buy these things for myself. So I have what I "need", Then what do I "want"? A new Mini Cooper "S", Playstation 3, a new iPod? What good is any of that? I am just making a list for one reason only, so that people can buy me something. Why is our society so consumeristic? I don't really want any of that.
If you would have asked me a month ago what I wanted for Christmas, I would have told you that I have everything that I "need" and I would be selfish to make a list of things that I "want". Therefore, what I would have told you is that I want someone else in this world who is not as fortunate as I am to have what they "need" for Christmas. That is what I "want", I want others to have what they "need". So I made sure that everyone who was going to be getting me something for Christmas knew what I wanted and to get me something from MCC's Christmas Giving Project. (http://www.mcc.org/christmas/)
I hope and pray that my Christmas Present this year will help make a difference in this world.
The real reason for today...
What do I want for Christmas? Ask me today and I will tell you. I want something that was already given to me. I want the "gift" that I have had all along.
Have you ever remembered loosing one of your favorite toys growing up? You spend hours, days, and weeks looking for it. Then time goes by along with the sadness of loosing it, until you begin to forget you ever even had it. Then one day, there it is under your bed all along, everything comes back to you. You are filled with overwhelming joy. Possibly even greater joy than when you received the toy in the first place because now it has become much more to you.
That is how I feel. I have lost the importance of God's Love in my life. In the past Christmas's have gone by. They all seem the same. Christmas to me became this trite holiday, the same thing year after year, I knew the story, I knew the songs. What I was loosing though was the "real" reason. And I knew the "Sunday School" answer (Because God so Loved the world He sent his one and only Son).
Yesterday, the Christmas Eve service at my church spoke to me, to slow down, to look past all the "plastic" holiday traditions that we have put on Christmas, to listen to God, to reflect on the real reason of Christmas. In the stillness of that silent night 2000 years ago, God sent His Son. As I sat there reflecting I could not help but think that the Christmas Story is not any different than the Easter Story and that the two of them together make sense. Christmas time is the "beginning" It is God's love come to earth for us. We are not perfect and we will never be able to make our lives worthy enough for God. But because of His love for me, This Christmas I have received the BEST Christmas Present. It was not what I asked for, but it was what God knew I needed, His Love.
About a month or so ago, when all the questions of "What do you want for Christmas?" began, I sat down one day to think about that very question. What do I want for Christmas? Socks, underwear, clothes, food? These are all things I need, but I have them all in abundance, heck I even have a job and I can afford to buy these things for myself. So I have what I "need", Then what do I "want"? A new Mini Cooper "S", Playstation 3, a new iPod? What good is any of that? I am just making a list for one reason only, so that people can buy me something. Why is our society so consumeristic? I don't really want any of that.
If you would have asked me a month ago what I wanted for Christmas, I would have told you that I have everything that I "need" and I would be selfish to make a list of things that I "want". Therefore, what I would have told you is that I want someone else in this world who is not as fortunate as I am to have what they "need" for Christmas. That is what I "want", I want others to have what they "need". So I made sure that everyone who was going to be getting me something for Christmas knew what I wanted and to get me something from MCC's Christmas Giving Project. (http://www.mcc.org/christmas/)
I hope and pray that my Christmas Present this year will help make a difference in this world.
The real reason for today...
What do I want for Christmas? Ask me today and I will tell you. I want something that was already given to me. I want the "gift" that I have had all along.
Have you ever remembered loosing one of your favorite toys growing up? You spend hours, days, and weeks looking for it. Then time goes by along with the sadness of loosing it, until you begin to forget you ever even had it. Then one day, there it is under your bed all along, everything comes back to you. You are filled with overwhelming joy. Possibly even greater joy than when you received the toy in the first place because now it has become much more to you.
That is how I feel. I have lost the importance of God's Love in my life. In the past Christmas's have gone by. They all seem the same. Christmas to me became this trite holiday, the same thing year after year, I knew the story, I knew the songs. What I was loosing though was the "real" reason. And I knew the "Sunday School" answer (Because God so Loved the world He sent his one and only Son).
Yesterday, the Christmas Eve service at my church spoke to me, to slow down, to look past all the "plastic" holiday traditions that we have put on Christmas, to listen to God, to reflect on the real reason of Christmas. In the stillness of that silent night 2000 years ago, God sent His Son. As I sat there reflecting I could not help but think that the Christmas Story is not any different than the Easter Story and that the two of them together make sense. Christmas time is the "beginning" It is God's love come to earth for us. We are not perfect and we will never be able to make our lives worthy enough for God. But because of His love for me, This Christmas I have received the BEST Christmas Present. It was not what I asked for, but it was what God knew I needed, His Love.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Back on Blogger and Ready to be Real.
Well, here I am, back in the world of blogging. Once again I am brought here mostly because of my friend Brandon. It is my friends like him that I care about and I want them to know what is going on in my life. Because he is thousands of miles away, this is how I can let a friend like him know what is going on in my life. This is my journal, this is my heart.
I am hurting. I have never reached a bottom in my life as deep as this. I never knew it could be this deep. Life is dark and lonely, it feels cold and empty. But in times like this, when we are stripped from everything that we held of importance in life, that God is present. There is nothing to see or hold to in darkness, only God's presence is known.
Why is it when we have all our cards lined up in "our order of importance" that we fall? Then the only card we have left to hold on to is God. He is faithful and will never leave us, even though we turn from Him. He wants "His Best" for our lives.
Why did I allow myself to become cold? Why did I turn my life from his path? Why was I not "real" with my best friends who care about me? God did not plan this, but He did allow it.
He has made himself known to me in the past and in High School I was baptized and chose to follow Him. He helps us along the way and guides us as we walk, but He will not strip us of our free will when we choose to walk off His path. He allows us to fall, but He is always there when we do. Will we turn to Him? In my case, yes, I have nothing. If I was to turn from Him also in a time like this then I would have nothing to live for. I thank God for His presence in my life. He not only cares about my life, but He cares about my eternity.
Will it be easy? Certainly Not. All of this that I have said is not easy. I miss my BEST FRIEND that I had. I hurt because the ones that I love are hurting (family and friends). I can only hope that my life will be a testimony to others. I pray that God will use me through this as He helps me through it. I am thankful for the love and support from family and friends in this time. I am thankful to God for His presence in my life and I pray for the many people in the world that go through hard times with no hope, I pray that God will be known to them.
"Hear my prayer, O Lord;
Give ear to my supplications in your faithfulness;
answer me in your righteousness.
Do not enter into judgment with your servant,
for no one living is righteous before you."
-Psalm 143
"Let me hear of your steadfast love in the morning,
for in you I put my trust.
Teach me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul."
-Psalm 143
Thanks Brandon, and all my friends for their encouragement and support. I hope that I can be the same for all of you.
-Love Joseph
I am hurting. I have never reached a bottom in my life as deep as this. I never knew it could be this deep. Life is dark and lonely, it feels cold and empty. But in times like this, when we are stripped from everything that we held of importance in life, that God is present. There is nothing to see or hold to in darkness, only God's presence is known.
Why is it when we have all our cards lined up in "our order of importance" that we fall? Then the only card we have left to hold on to is God. He is faithful and will never leave us, even though we turn from Him. He wants "His Best" for our lives.
Why did I allow myself to become cold? Why did I turn my life from his path? Why was I not "real" with my best friends who care about me? God did not plan this, but He did allow it.
He has made himself known to me in the past and in High School I was baptized and chose to follow Him. He helps us along the way and guides us as we walk, but He will not strip us of our free will when we choose to walk off His path. He allows us to fall, but He is always there when we do. Will we turn to Him? In my case, yes, I have nothing. If I was to turn from Him also in a time like this then I would have nothing to live for. I thank God for His presence in my life. He not only cares about my life, but He cares about my eternity.
Will it be easy? Certainly Not. All of this that I have said is not easy. I miss my BEST FRIEND that I had. I hurt because the ones that I love are hurting (family and friends). I can only hope that my life will be a testimony to others. I pray that God will use me through this as He helps me through it. I am thankful for the love and support from family and friends in this time. I am thankful to God for His presence in my life and I pray for the many people in the world that go through hard times with no hope, I pray that God will be known to them.
"Hear my prayer, O Lord;
Give ear to my supplications in your faithfulness;
answer me in your righteousness.
Do not enter into judgment with your servant,
for no one living is righteous before you."
-Psalm 143
"Let me hear of your steadfast love in the morning,
for in you I put my trust.
Teach me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul."
-Psalm 143
Thanks Brandon, and all my friends for their encouragement and support. I hope that I can be the same for all of you.
-Love Joseph
Monday, February 27, 2006
I have a Widget now
I now have a Widget for my Mac OS-X. I can type and publish posts with just one button.
Will this make me post more?
Probably not, but I love my Mac.
Will this make me post more?
Probably not, but I love my Mac.
Monday, October 03, 2005
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Underground chillin' with the Mole Man, and his whole Fam...
Back underground I go... Again into the depths of Mount Nemo...
Side Note* Don't let the name fool you "Mount" refers not so much to a Mountain, but to a slightly higer elevation than the flat ground below.
The team of Spelunkers is Me, Brad, Jordan, and Sarah
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Flying Kites
September Long Weekend Brad and I bought kites while up north at my cottage. Yet one more sport to get into.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
I'm on...
What brings me here? Is it beacuse of my overabundance of free time? Is it the love for my Mac G5, that I will use any excuse to use my computer? Am I getting borred of spending time with Jocelyn?
The answer to all the above is... NO!
FRIENDSHIP is what brings me into this realm of cyberspace. Brandon this is all for you... You asked for it. I don't think I will update this as often as you but I will do my best to keep you informed of the adventures your friends are having here in the mountainless provience of Ontario.
The answer to all the above is... NO!
FRIENDSHIP is what brings me into this realm of cyberspace. Brandon this is all for you... You asked for it. I don't think I will update this as often as you but I will do my best to keep you informed of the adventures your friends are having here in the mountainless provience of Ontario.
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